Monday, March 24, 2014

And yet another ignorant statement is released to the masses

Hahahahahahaha.....

Ha ha

Excuse me, I'm laughing so hard. **snorts** Hahahaha

OMG.

Okay.

So, last week the American Academy of Pediatrics and the American Congress of Obstetrics and Gynecologists released a joint opinion on the use of water births in hospitals and birth centers. This has caused a wave of subsequent opinions all over the internet, starting from MD's and ending with first time pregnant moms. I read through the entire thing, and this is the basic gist of it:

"Water birth has not been proven either way to be safer or more dangerous for mothers or babies and has a list of potential complications, therefore should just not be practiced anywhere unless it is under very specific medical supervision"

guy animated GIF
"come again?"

Okay, I mean, that sounds bad, right? If something can't be proven as safe, why go forward with it at all, especially when considering the health and well being of the mom and baby?

Let me just put some stuff in perspective for you:

risks of water birth  according to this opinion:

  • Higher risk of maternal and neonatal infections, particularly with ruptured membranes; 
  • Difficulties in neonatal thermoregulation; 
  • Umbilical cord avulsion and umbilical cord rupture while the newborn infant is lifted or maneuvered through and From the underwater pool at delivery, which leads to serious hemorrhage and shock; 
  • Respiratory distress and hyponatremia that results from tub-water aspiration (drowning or near drowning); 
  • Seizures and perinatal asphyxia


Yikes. That is quite the laundry list of potential complications from giving birth in the water. I can understand a person's concern after reading that.

So why is it still my opinion that water births are safe, effective, and should be offered to every pregnant mama as a choice for her birth plan?

Because childbirth itself is a risk. There is no 100% safe way to deliver a baby. Period. Water births are elective, and they have a list of complications just like any other elective during childbirth, such as epidurals and pitocin. Case in point:

risks of an epidural 

  • Seizures
  • Anaphylaxis
  • Neurologic injury
  • Persistent paresthesias and limited motor weakness
  • Neurologic injury
  • Cauda Equina Syndrome (nerve cell damage)
  • Spinal Hematoma
  • Spinal Abscess
  • Hypotension
  • Cardiac arres
  • Accidental subdural injection
  • Not to mention, epidurals essentially paralyze the mom from the waist down, which introduces a whole host of other potential complications from not being able to move around freely and choose a birthing position that is most effective. It reduces them to giving birth on their backs, which is the least effective and most difficult way to birth. Also, you are injecting something DIRECTLY INTO YOUR SPINE. WHYYYYY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!


"guh head and just jam 'er right in. It's just my spine. No big."

  • Anaphylactic reaction
  • Nausea
  • Postpartum hemorrhage
  • Vomiting
  • Cardiac arrhythmia
  • Premature ventricular contractions
  • Fatal afibrinogenemia (blood not clotting)
  • Pelvic hematoma  
  • Bradycardia (extremely low heart rate)
  • Premature ventricular contractions and other arrhythmias
  • Permanent CNS or brain damage
  • Fetal death
  • Low Apgar scores at five minutes
  • Neonatal jaundice
  • Neonatal retinal hemorrhage
  • Contractions also come harder and faster, putting stress on the fetus and rushing the labor, and the end result is ultimately a cesarean because of risk to the baby.


  • Premature rupture of membranes
  • Umbilical cord prolapse
  • Umbilical cord compression
  • Amniotic fluid embolism
  • Pre-Eclampsia
  • Postpartum hemorrhage
  • Still birth
  • Vaginal tearing 

Since cesarean sections are not always elective, I won't list the dangers associated with them here, but I will say that US rates are currently at 38.2%, which is ASTOUNDINGLY high. Are they safer than vaginal birth? Most of the time, no. Yet, we are still doing them at an alarmingly high rate. Not allowing a mother to make her own birth choices, move around during labor, and choose a position that feels the best and is most effective is the most dangerous thing an OB can do, in my opinion. Letting pride and ego get in the way of safe birth options is far more dangerous than a water birth. Despite these dangers, it still happens to thousands of women all over the country and most people don't even blink an eye. But when they "put themselves and their babies at risk" by choosing a water birth, everyone clutches their pearls and says a quick prayer that those poor babies don't drown.

"Heavens!! Someone call the CPA!!"

Unfortunately, this opinion has given internet trolls more fuel for their arguments against water birth. "It's dirty", they say, "It's unnatural", they say, "mothers who choose them are narcissistic, uneducated, selfish, and gross." they say and say and say. I don't know where these people are getting their opinions, but they are certainly not evidence based. My own water birth was amazing. I labored both in the tub and on my back on the bed, and ultimately I chose the tub and you couldn't get me out of there if you paid me. I used no drugs during my labor, and being in the water helped significantly. When I was on my back (and even on all fours) on the bed, the pain I felt was significantly increased. When Rowan came out, there was no "grossness", the water was crystal clear. I didn't choose that birth because I'm a narcissist (though I'll openly admit I am, haha!), I chose it because I knew that was the best option for myself and for my kid. Does that mean every water birth is as amazing and complication free as mine? Not by a long shot. It only takes one google search to find multitudes of women who have had great water births, and some that ended not so great. Most of the "not so great ones", however, don't blame the water for their complications and I'd bet money you'd see the comment "It would have happened in the hospital too" on 98% of them. As for the unnatural comment (this was a real facebook comment, saying that because apes didn't give birth in the water, so shouldn't we...), please tell me what IS natural about epidurals, OB/GYNs, IV's, scales, vitamin shots, and vaccines? All of those are unnatural and we still do them at almost every birth. 

"No babies here!! Look away!!"

Every woman has the right (and I would go so far as to say obligation) to research all the possible options for giving birth, and weigh the risks and benefits of each one. Water birth is not for everyone, some women are skeezed out by it and that is totally ok. If they decide an elective cesarean is right for them and their baby, despite massive evidence against it, that is their right and they should be freely allowed to exercise that choice. If they want to have a natural child birth out of the water, more power to them. My problem with this opinion that has been released, is that it states water birth should not be practiced because of the risks associated with it. This is madness. If we really needed to cease all practices that posed a risk, we really should just stop having babies.

Saturday, February 8, 2014

We have a website!



My goals this week were to pick up some store fixtures, finally pick a name, and get a website going.

DONE, DONE, AND DONE.

I picked up some naked mannequins at City Liquidators, and browsed the other stuff they had to get an idea of how much money I'm going to need for everything.

Hint: It's a lot. But not as much as I was thinking.

"Hey, whitey, ever hear of sunscreen?"
nyuck nyuck nyuck

Also, I finally, after many MANY MANY name deliberations, have settled on a name:

Wonder Skates!

The basic theme idea is a comic book inspired theme. I don't want it to be too over the top, to where it looks like a joke, but the store will be bright and fun.

Now that I have a name, I also have a website AND a facebook page.
Check 'er out: www.wonderskates.com or www.facebook.com/wonderskatespdx OR BOTH.


Friday, January 31, 2014

In which I follow a dream.

I'm not going to heavily advertise this, simply because I'm a coward and don't want to listen to negativity, but I have made a pretty big decision for my life recently and I do want to document the process from start to finish.

I have decided to start my own business.

As of right now, there are currently FIVE roller derby leagues in the Portland-Vancouver area. There is a league in Salem, and a few in southern Oregon. Our state is PREGNANT with roller derby right now, and only growing bigger. And what are our options when it comes to buying gear and derby apparel? Not much locally. We can buy anything online, and for a pretty good price, or we can go to a roller rink pro shop. There are a few disadvantages to this though:

1. Ordering online sucks because you have to wait. First world problem, I know, but when you're excited and want to start using your new skates right away, or you REALLY need that helmet, nobody wants to wait 7-10 business days to get them. Not to mention, returns are a HASSLE and you had better hope it's what you want so you don't have to deal with.

2. Pro shops typically have limited hours of operation. Usually only during open skate times. Their selection is also pretty limited, and they employee high schoolers that aren't typically well educated in getting someone what they need.

"Knee pads? Yeah we have those I guess. You can also just, like, wrap them in an ace bandage or something, I dunno. Sorry, I'm kinda busy right now."


Enter me!!

My plan is to open up a skate shop that caters to the roller skating community of Portland and Vancouver. I'm not talking about a skateboarding shop that also happens to carry some derby stuff but really just skateboarding stuff... I'm talking about a shop that carries roller skates, gear, apparel, and accessories JUST for derby, speed skating, dance, jam, art, what have you. Fuck, even if you just like to roller skate around town for fun, you'll get what you need at my place. I'm also going to have stuff that caters to counter culture peeps. So lots of alternative clothes, makeup, jewelry, etc.This way, even if you don't need derby stuff, you can still come down because I'm likely going to have something you want.

"I personally don't do anything remotely active or athletic, but I still find everything I could ever want and need at Apex"

Oh, and I'm going to carry derby branded athletic wear, like Pivot Star and Derby Skinz. That's right, you'll now be able to get your Francey Pants and sparkly booty shorts LOCAL.


Mmmmmm. Francey.

Eventually, I want to have a skate and gear rental program, so those who are new to skating can try stuff out for a small weekly fee before they commit to buying. I'm hoping this will also encourage them to come back to me when they're ready to purchase.




"Hey Cierra, this all sounds real swell, but what is your next step?"



I'm glad you asked, Jimmy.

I have already started scouting out potential locations. I plan to stay in the North Portland area to keep the rent down and so my commute isn't horrible. I've seen some stuff I like and gotten a pretty good idea of what I'm looking for. I also learned what an NNN lease is. I feel like an expert already. My next step is to finish my kickass business plan and start working on finding a lender. I'm going to need around 20K to hit the ground running. So for now, I'm saving my pennies and getting all my ducks in a row. My next big step is to approach a bank with a proposal for an SBA loan.

Stay tuned, more exciting badassery to come!!!

Sunday, December 1, 2013

My son, the super villian

Being the mom of a 5 year old, I'm constantly subjected to cute and amazing things my kid says. Most of it is endearing and heart warming, and at the very least makes absolutely no sense. It's adorable.

But every now and then, Rowan mutters something so inherently evil, I laugh nervously while secretly wondering if I need to start saving up for therapy. Or possibly start checking his closet for bodies.

You see, Rowan, being five (and/or the product of my DNA) has a flair for the dramatic. You tell him he can't have some Halloween candy, he throws his hands up in the air and says he's throwing it all away. You tell him he can't put a puzzle together because it's bed time, he says he will NEVER EVER EVER do puzzles EVER AGAIN.

I may or may not have uttered very similar phrases myself, and I'm 30 damn years old.

Last week, as I was getting myself and Rowan ready for the day, I gave him some juice and some cereal and instructed him to eat it before we left. I gave him fair warning. When it came to go time, however, he hadn't finished either one and we had a grade A meltdown before we even walked out the door.

As I was driving him to school, he had finished his meltdown but was sitting in his seat, silently sulking.

From the backseat, I heard him murmur "I will destroy the world."

WHAT THE FLYING FUCK.

The scariest thing about this statement, is that he did not scream it at me in typical preschooler fashion. No, he silently stared out the window for a minute, and then that phrase came floating up from the backseat, gripping me in terror.

Just today, I had made plans with a friend to meet for breakfast. All would have been well, except she was asleep and not answering her phone by the time I pulled up in front of her house. I sat outside in my car, texting her, but eventually gave up.

Rowan was not happy about this. He loves this particular friend, and was really excited to see her.

I tried to explain to him that she was probably still asleep, and we could maybe come back some other time.

To which he replied "I'm going to burn their house to the ground."

**blink**

Once again, he said it in his serial killer voice, while staring maliciously out the window.

I'm not sure what to do here. We had a talk about threatening violence upon others, and I've explained to him how WRONG that is... but he just smiled and said:

"Just joking, mom."

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

One weird tip to lose belly fat!

So here we are, at the beginning of week 4 on Whole30. We have 6 days left of this thing. I decided to base this blog more on some inspiration that I've gotten these last three weeks over how I've progressed.

Whilst browsing pinterest, I'm constantly inundated with pins from others they have pinned to their "weight loss" or "fitness" board. I see the same sort of posts on facebook. It's always a shot of a tanned and toned fitness model, usually in a sports bra and glistening with sweat. There is usually some inspirational quote photoshopped over the top, saying something along the lines of "hard work is the only way to results" or "strong is the new skinny" or "10 minutes of runnign is ten minutes longer than the person sitting on the couch." Relatively speaking, it is much easier on the eyes than a typical fashion model in at least it shows women who are fit and in good health. I would prefer using them for inspiration over posting pics of some anorexic celebrity and stiving to acheive that look. However, I still hate those photos. I hate them because they are still encouraging women to strive for something that the media and society has told them they need to strive for. Strong is the new skinny, so try to get six pack abs, a rock hard butt, and totally toned arms. Women are being subliminally told that they must achieve all those things to be attractive and it's total bullshit.  Eating healthy, having a good physical and mental relationship with food, and being active and fit enough to enjoy life and your family should be what all women strive for. Starving yourself, counting calories or carbs or grams of fat, and spending two hours a day in the gym doesn't achieve that. All it does is stress you out and maintain the control your body image has over you. Don't get me wrong, I've repinned and reposted my fair share of those photos but after taking a good long look at them and what they mean, I've taken them down.


Another disturbing trend among women I have come to notice, are all the fad diets that promise fast weight loss. "I heard if I only drink homemade juice for 30 days I'll lose 60 pounds!", "If I take this pregnancy hormone and eat less than 500 calories a day, I'll lose a ton of weight by summer!". 

Its bullshit. It's all bullshit.

I will say again: WEIGHT LOSS IS NOT EASY. Nor is it supposed to be. You aren't supposed to lose 60 pounds in a month, or two months. Even 3 months. Because the SECOND you stop drinking juice, or start eating cupcakes again, you will gain all of it back. Fad diets teach you nothing about eating healthy and maintaining that weight you worked so hard for. There is no "one trick" to a skinny body. It's a multitude of tricks and education and a strive for health over weight that will get you there.



My best advice: eat healthy. Do your research. Learn how food affects us biologically and psychologically. Stay away from crap our bodies were never meant to eat. Humans have inhabited this planet for millions of years, yet we've only been eating grains for 10,000 of them. Our bodies simply cannot process grains and dairy. But don't take my word for it, look it up!

For more info on Whole9/Whole30 and the paleo diet, including all the benefits and resources you need for your own research, check out www.whole9life.com

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Roller Derby and the Empowerment of Women

Before I get started on this post, I'm going to preface this by saying that I am in no way singling out any one person, or even any one league. I still have lots of friends that skate WFTDA derby for other leagues and this is not a post to state how much they suck or how other derby is so much better. Those who are my friends on facebook are ones I trust and who agree with me to a certain extent.


That being said.


I started playing roller derby a little over three years ago for a huge league in my area. I had seen their championship bout a couple of years prior and fell in love with it. I loved the outfits, the attitudes, and the fact that these women were accomplishing an amazing thing while simultaneously flipping the bird to conventional attitudes. Fuck, those women were awesome. They wore ripped tights, booty shorts, they had great makeup.  They skated around the track with an intensity and rebelliousness I admired immediately. I knew I had to do it.


I joined the rec league with high expectations. I poured my heart and soul into derby. Six months later, I decided to try out for Fresh Meat.


Lo and behold, I made it.


My hopes rose even higher, with the prospect that I was that much closer to getting on a team. My ultimate goal. The thing I wanted above everything else in my life. Literally. As the days went on and my Fresh Meat career  lengthened, I put derby above everything else. I was skating 4-6 nights a week, participating in 2 committees, and going to every single bout put on by our home teams. I was basically home long enough to cram food in my mouth and leave again. My family life suffered, my friendships suffered. I couldn't complain, though, because "everyone has lives outside of derby, you're no exception." as I was told by coaches and leadership at the time. I nodded and grinned as big as I could, because it was true. I was also told that the league supports skaters with families and busy lives, and I wholeheartedly believed it. Because a league that says it supports and empowers women couldn't possibly be unsupportive of women with families and kids and lives, right?


Right?


Right around my one year anniversary on Fresh Meat, my enthusiasm became harder to come by. I had been through 2 or 3 drafts at that point, and hadn't been picked. But I wasn't going to let that get me down. I gladly rolled over and exposed my belly to the league again. I pushed harder and invested everything I had, mentally and physically into the league, because that's what was expected of me. Anything less and I was deemed "not dedicated". I saw it happen multiple times to other people. There were no good excuses for missing practice. We had an 80% attendance policy, but were expected to use that 20% as "emergency padding" in case something devastating prevented us from getting to practice. We were told that if we showed a consistent 80%, we would probably still not get drafted. We needed to be at 100% or higher to even be considered. I was starting to become a husk of a person, my obsession with getting onto a team becoming the only motivation to attend practice. I didn't care about having fun anymore (I wasn't), I didn't care about being empowered ( I wasn't) and I certainly didn't care about the amount of dedication I thought it took to get to the top. 


As my second year anniversary approached, I had made it through 6 drafts. I had watched as spots opened up on teams, only to be disappointed when a vet skater came back and took that spot under the new "immediate draft" policy. I listened as others would fawn over visiting skaters, begging them to transfer and join their team instead of focusing on the talent that was waiting on Fresh Meat. I tried to ignore it when skaters from other leagues told me team captains had visited and attempted to recruit. From the outside looking in, it seemed our league was hurting for talent. While attending a training committee meeting, I overheard the head of that committee tell another skater that "If someone gets on FM who doesn't show potential to join the A travel team, they are a waste of our time." Verbatim. If you were not a talented skater from the get-go, you were considered a waste. Our travel team was consistently in the top five rankings in the nation, so our league was focused and dead set on being number one. They trained their travel team hard, and that trickled down to home teams, and then Fresh Meat. Nobody cared if you weren't having fun, they needed to be number one and they were willing to steamroll anyone who didn't show enough potential to get them there. It no longer mattered how much heart and soul you had for derby, how hard you pushed yourself, how much personal improvement you made, or how bad you wanted it. Home team skaters were no exception. Only the best ever got rostered, and in some cases, only the best were allowed to scrimmage, rendering the less talented skaters even more useless by not getting any game time. We were still expected to shut up and show up though. We were expected to sell tickets to events we were not skating in. We were told not to cry if we weren't drafted or rostered because that showed we were poor sports. 


That year several aspects of my personal life turned themselves into a crisis. By the summer I was in full on crisis mode, trying to deal with some pretty bad shit. Derby finally took a back burner to my personal life. My attendance was abysmally low, because dealing with my crises was more important to me than showing up. I was informed in August that I was no longer welcome on Fresh Meat due to my poor attendance. I was devastated. Not only was I trying to pick up the pieces of my personal life, but the one thing that offered me solace in that time was being taken away. I appealed to the board, and was told my appeal would be considered at the next training committee meeting a month away, and in the meantime I should come to practice as normal. By then, my life had started to stabilize and I was able to dive into derby once again. During that month, I did EVERYTHING. I went to every practice, every bonus practice, every team practice, even if I didn't get credit for it. I wanted to show them my dedication was back in full force, and it was. During the meeting, I stated my case. I said my personal life was under control again and I was ready and willing to give derby everything I had. The committee consisted of several team skaters and two FM skaters. I answered questions, and agreed out loud that in hindsight I should have communicated more about my struggles. In my head, I was still wondering what good that would have done, however. Everyone has personal problems and I know I would have gotten a "suck it up and show up to practice anyway" speech. I was not empowered, no one gave a shit about me because I didn't fit the social mold, I wasn't a super star skater, and god forbid I put something above derby for once. It was a unanimous vote. I was out. Even the two FM skaters voted me out. I cried harder than I had cried in a long time. Derby was all I knew at that point. I was invited to keep volunteering and try out for Fresh Meat again in a couple of months. I laughed, and I laughed hard. It just went to show the attitude of that league. "We'll keep you on Fresh Meat for two years, make you feel like shit the whole time for not being super talented, and kick you out when you have a crisis in your personal life, but please keep volunteering and doing shit for us and maybe we'll consider you in the future sometime"


In November that year, myself and a handful of other girls, some of them whom had also left that league, banded together and started our own league. A Renegade league. We wanted to bring back the showmanship and the campiness that is embedded in derby's roots. We wanted to bring the fun back into derby, for EVERYONE, not just a select few. We wanted to empower all women again. Anyone who wanted to skate with us would be welcomed into our fold and not judged based on appearance, social skills (or lack thereof) or talent. We planned to have a cohesive and respectful relationship with the flat track derby league in our town, and planned on presenting ourselves to the Executive Director as soon as we had a drawn out business plan and got ourselves organized a bit. Word spread like wildfire, though, as it does in derby, and soon I got a call from her asking what the hell we were doing. I explained to her what our plan was, and how we wanted to offer a different derby option for anyone who wanted it. I told her that flat track derby has been going a different direction than a lot of people had expected, and we wanted to be there for those that don't want to be a jock. She advised me that if it was showboating and campiness we wanted, we could probably have special bouts or something to entertain the fans. I respectfully told her that with a league that laughs at and mocks fishnets and themed bouts, it couldn't happen. That league was too far absorbed into being “athletic” and getting into the olympics to let anything like that happen. We later received an email stating we are attempting to start a competing business and the league skaters would be expected to sign a non compete agreement so that they couldn't skate with us. We were then openly mocked on social media. Renegade was called dumb, and not legitimate derby. Friends of mine who were still in that other league told me about several skaters that couldn't stop badmouthing us. Is this really the roller derby women want to join? A league that considers anything different from them illegitimate? Is it really so wrong to have different ideas and goals for roller derby than what is set for you by your league? Why would anyone want to stay in a league where they are openly mocked and ridiculed? One of my good friends, when experiencing frustration during a skill plateau (which is common and normal) was told to "put on her big girl panties and quit crying about it." Does that sound supportive or empowering in any way? When I hear "I don't wear derby skinz, I only wear athletic gear now." following by a snort and giggling gossip after that person walks away, my faith in that league officially goes down the toilet.



I have had more fun in the 8 months I have been skating renegade than I did in almost 2.5 years of skating flat track derby. Yes, we are still a baby league and we have our issues just like anything else. But all of us still remember what it's like to first start out. People who don't show crazy talent right off the bat are encouraged instead of condemned. We don't have tryouts, we don't have Fresh Meat, and the only thing that keeps a person from getting rostered is if they haven't reached a point where they are safe to bout. We just recently implemented an attendance policy, but it's not set in stone and if a skater is struggling, she feels safe enough to come to us to work it out. We don't care about winning as much, or being number one. We care about everyone having a good time and playing some motha fuckin roller derby. Just because we skate Renegade doesn't mean we skate dirty, dangerous, or we aren't athletes. We train clean and mean. Our first priority is safety and fitness, our second is the show. 99% of the haters that criticize Renegade have never even watched us skate. Our first bout is coming up on October 19th, and I can honestly say I am honored to skate with each and every person on my team, regardless of how they look, and regardless of how they skate. 

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Birthdays and whatnot

So two weeks ago, I turned 30. In the weeks leading up to my birthday, a lot of people exclaimed "Say goodbye to your twennnnnnnntiessssss!" in a sing-songy voice while waggling their eyebrows at me. I mean, honestly, I'm pretty sure I left my twenties behind when I had a kid at 25. So I would just laugh along with them, maybe throwing in an "OOHHH UH OH!!!" here or there.

So in all reality, I don't really feel that much older. I'm sure most women will hate me for saying this, but, I haven't really aged since I was 14. I have grown much MUCH wiser, (not really) but looks wise, I still got it goin' on.

It's like staring into the past, present, AND the future!

On that note, here's a list of things, besides my age, that prove I am getting older:

My porch lurking
When Mo and I are schlumping on the couch watching a movie at night with our door open, enjoying the cool breeze wafting over our glistening rolls poking out from under our clothing, (how's THAT for imagery, huh?) and we hear some kind of ruckus happening outside, we'll peel ourselves up from the couch, shuffle over onto the the porch, and sit there staring menacingly at whoever has the balls to raise their voice while walking down the street. We do this for two reasons: to monitor any possible foul play in the neighborhood, and to witness any possible drama going down.Ten years ago? I would jump up in hopes something cool and exciting was happening outside my door and I'd want to participate. Now, we just stand there and attempt to intimidate. We are two years away from "GIT OFF MY LAWN".
Seriously. Put a bright red wig on him and he looks like my twin.

I leave parties at 11pm
When I was planning my big nerdy thirty party, I decided to open the evening with some private room karaoke, and end it at a bowling alley/lounge. Most young people wouldn't even be thinking about getting ready for a night out until at least 9pm.

Not me.

I started getting ready at 3, and I was at Voicebox at 5pm SHARP. Let me just repeat that, so that it really sinks in: I STARTED MY PARTY AT 5PM. That is just only slightly worse than hitting Sweet Tomatoes at 4pm for the early bird special.

Leading in to:

Bedtime
I turn into a pumpkin at 11pm. Oh, I've tried staying up until all hours of the morning like I used to, but at this point, I don't even know what 3am looks like anymore, unless it's 3am and my 5 year old is crawling into bed with me, asking to watch television and complaining his legs hurt. Also, the other night I caught myself thinking: "I should bring my water bottle to bed. Mmm, nah. I will just be getting up all night to pee." I SAID THAT, YOU GUYS.

What in the fu.....

My opinion of young people
I'm not saying I'm that old crotchety person scowling at little kids just yet. I'm talking about my general opinion and attitude towards people in the age range of 16-25. I have reached the point where I want to smile knowingly when they talk to me about inane, shallow shit and say something wise like: "Oh my child, you have much to learn." I'm that annoying "just you wait" adult. I just want to impart all my wisdom upon these poor innocent souls, even though realistically I was JUST THERE.

My general condition after practice
Now, I have never been the athletic type. I didn't play sports in high school. BUT, I did skateboard, and I skated a LOT. Street, vert, anything I could put my wheels on. As a 16 year old, I could skate for 6 hours, drink a slurpee, and spryly jump up to skate some more. And barely feel anything in the morning other than a shade of soreness in my thighs.

Not so much now.

I go to a 2 hour practice, even if it's just endurance and I'm not getting bashed around, and I feel like I was hit by a freight train almost immediately. The next morning, I'm wondering who the fuck picked me up during REM sleep and proceeded to throw me around my room. I can barely walk the next day. Plus I'm so dehydrated my skin starts peeling off. My youthful days of athleticism are gone, my friends. All that's left is an empty, panting shell.

Must... remember... to drink... more... water....